Last week, I celebrated the 5 year anniversary of the day I tried to take my own life. I didn't celebrate the day, but I celebrated all the days since.
I can't believe the difference perspective, purpose, and momentum all make on a person's life.
My perspective is brighter, lighter, and more positive because I now choose to focus on the right things.
Philippians 4:8 NIV
Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things.
My purpose, even though it isn't always clear, is given me by my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. He loves me, He knows my heart's desires, and He has a plan for me. Makes me cry every time I think about it. It's extremely freeing.
Proverbs 3:5-6 NIV
Trust in the Lord with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him,
and he will make your paths straight.
Because of the first two, the momentum of my life is drastically changed. Before, I would spend hours doing nothing but sit in self-pity. I had a "woe is me" life. But now, I know that I chose that perspective. I was going nowhere. I'm no longer stagnant. I'm moving. I'm moving through a life that is more real, more satisfying, and more significant than I could have ever imagined.
I'm thriving because God has the steering wheel of my life. I trust in His plans for me. They may not be what my old self wanted or expected . But this is His parade, not mine. I'm just lucky to be invited to march in it.
Every day, I thank Him for all of my blessings. And every day He pours more on me.
Life is amazing!
I can't believe that I almost gave it all up 5 years ago.
